I did go to urgent care. And while I was sitting there for an hour (accidentally bleeding on their carpet) I was reflecting on my rush to comfort the people around me for having to react to my injury, and remembered my one and only interaction with the school counselor in 6th grade. Back then elementary schools didn’t have counselors, psychologists, all that. 6th grade was the first time this concept was introduced, and I imagine his mandate was to meet with each kid at least once that year.

So I got called in, and I’m already semi-wondering if I’m in trouble for something, because I was always worried I was in trouble for something. He has me sit down and asks how I’m doing. I immediately have to hold back a flood tears. No one has ever asked me this. I don’t even know what’s happening in the moment, I just know that whatever emotions and feelings he accidentally scraped loose need to be locked down. My instinct was: I don’t want this guy I am meeting for the first time to have to worry about me or take care of me. So I just say “I’m fine, I’m fine, nothing to report, everything’s fine,” desperately trying not to leak tears all over myself, until he sends me back to class. And that was the last time I thought about that until now.

What’s that about one might wonder. Not me though.

When I got laid off last year¹, I vividly remember this sense of serenity, of total calmness, as I walked into work that morning.

I knew it was coming. And I knew it was gonna hurt my boss just as much as it hurt me.

During the entire brief meeting, I found myself genuinely asking him how he was feeling, how I could help him, despite the fact that I was the one who needed to figure out how I would feed my family.

I wonder if there’s a psychological term to describe that tendency. Like, a combination of altruism and shock.

The fact is, someone is almost always watching, so it’s worth treating everything you do with purpose and pride. And, even if no one has their eyes on you, it is still a chance to “practice your craft”. To improve. To build strong habits.

Since time is limited, we only get so many opportunities.

We might as well take advantage of each one we get.

“As I remember London” should be a wake-up call for everyone in the Ruby and Rails communities. This is not a man who wants to keep going. This is a man who romanticizes a past that was predominantly good for white men. This is a man who has spent years railing against diversity, equity and inclusion and who spreads anti-trans rhetoric. This is a man who is deeply afraid of immigration changing countries’ cultures and “national identities”, despite this kind of change being a constant for the whole of human history. This is a man who is a white nationalist. And he is in sole control of Rails, this framework we all love.

Just can’t catch a break from fascism.

I’ve been wanting to rewrite my blog¹ and while I had been considering running rails new and using it as a chance to learn Rails 8, maybe I should save the Rails for my day job and try something different for these parts.

Any suggestions? What are the kids using these days, HTMX?

The solution isn’t to ask nicely for these companies to do better. We tried that. The solution isn’t to hope users will abandon these platforms en masse. That won’t happen as long as the network effects keep people trapped.

The solution is regulation. Real regulation. Not the performative theater we’ve seen in congressional hearings, but actual laws with actual consequences.

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Turn off the internet. Or fix it. Those are the only choices we have left. The time for hoping these companies will self-regulate is over. The time for treating algorithmic manipulation as an inevitable part of modern life is over. We know what these systems do. We know who they hurt. The only question left is whether we’re going to do something about it.

We know these platforms are bad for us, so why are they still so widely used? They tell a compelling story: that all of your frantic tapping and swiping makes you a key part of a political revolution, or a fearless investigator, or a righteous protestor – that when you’re online, you’re someone important, doing important things during an important time.

But this, for the most part, is an illusion. In reality, you’re toiling anonymously in an attention factory, while billionaire overseers mock your efforts and celebrate their growing net worths.

After troubling national events, there’s often a public conversation about the appropriate way to respond. Here’s one option to consider: Quit using these social platforms. Find other ways to keep up with the news, or spread ideas, or be entertained. Be a responsible grown-up who does useful things; someone who serves real people in the real world.

The programming language is called "cursed". It's cursed in its lexical structure, it's cursed in how it was built, it's cursed that this is possible, it's cursed in how cheap this was, and it's cursed through how many times I've sworn at Claude.

Absolutely dying at this.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Donald Lawrence and the Tri-City Singers lately. Big, powerful gospel choir music feels pretty dang good right now.¹

This gospel choir-fueled version of the U2 hit is something else.

Behind every seemingly effortless success lies a landscape of invisible battles: endless meetings, self-doubts, and moments of near-total collapse.

What truly separates people isn’t some magical talent, but an almost irrational commitment to pushing through pain that would break most people.

Everything around you—every convenience you enjoy, every space you inhabit, every service you use—was one person’s refusal to accept the world as it was.

The world progresses from a collection of irrational dedication.

Related: glory means nothing without sacrifice. Personally, I’m sometimes quick to want the glory without the sacrifice, which results in a fairly hallow glory.

I’ve cut social media almost entirely out of my life (10/10 recommend), but I still drop into LinkedIn every so often. And honestly? I get exhausted fast by all the heavy, depressing posts.

Yes, there’s a lot of real suffering and injustice in the world. If you’re in the thick of it right now, I hope you’re able to keep hanging in there.

But if you’d like a little break from the bleak hellscape that is 21st-century journalism, check out the latest issue of Fix the News. Or, if you just want the highlights, here are a few that stood out to me:

• Billions of people have gained clean water, sanitation, and hygiene in the last nine years. (Billions with a B.)

• In the 12 months prior to June, Africa imported over 15GW of solar panels. Sierra Leone alone imported enough to cover 65% of its entire generating capacity.

• Google estimates the median LLM prompt uses 0.24 Wh (about nine seconds of TV), emitting 0.03 g of CO₂ and five drops of water. (How many of you leave the TV on while doing chores?)

• Wildfires are terrifying, but between 2002 and 2021, global burned area actually fell 26%.

A gentle reminder: news and social media are designed to keep you engaged by stoking fear, outrage, and anxiety. That cycle is hard to break, and a lot of my friends worry that looking away even for a moment means we will collectively slide into totalitarianism and ruin.

That’s a lot of weight to carry alone. Yes, we need to stay vigilant and hold leaders accountable, but we can’t live paralyzed by fear. There are countless good people stepping up, trying to make the world better (including many of you). Try to hold onto that truth alongside the bleak!

Big O notation is a way of describing the performance of a function without using time. Rather than timing a function from start to finish, big O describes how the time grows as the input size increases. It is used to help understand how programs will perform across a range of inputs.

In this post I'm going to cover 4 frequently-used categories of big O notation: constant, logarithmic, linear, and quadratic. Don't worry if these words mean nothing to you right now. I'm going to talk about them in detail, as well as visualise them, throughout this post.

I have a minor in computer science, and I remember sitting through many explanations of the importance of Big O notation, yet it hasn’t really mattered much in my career until recently.

If you have heard of Big O but aren’t clear on how it works, give this post a shot. It contains a lot of great visualizations to help drive the point home.